Wednesday, April 19, 2006

What Makes me Blue......

When a child, a widow, a parent, family or friend cries uncontrollably.
When justice is overlooked and the poor remain broken as result.
When I think I have it figured out and realize I don’t.
When people are not acknowledged for who they are, a created being.
When people or myself don’t acknowledge the living god.
When people say god is not real.
When I anxiously want to kiss my daughter good night and can’t.
When children, men or women are exploited.
When people are freed and still walk with invisible shackles around their heart.
When a promised call or visit doesn’t happen.
When earthly things are put before relationships.
When I can’t hear you.
When I can’t sing to you.
When I can’t feel your presence.
When someone dies and we could have done something.
When we talk the talk but never step out to risk the calling.
When I just need someone to listen and they feel they need to fix me.
When an opportunity to share the good news doesn’t happen or missed.
When we feel grace has a limit to our father.
When I see a child hungry, not just for food but also for pure touch.
When I look into hopeless eyes.
When I know people are screaming in their hearts for freedom.
When I know most of these people won’t be heard.
When our king returns and many will parish.
When a brokenhearted can’t even look at you in the eyes.
When desperation takes it toll.
When freedom is taken for granted.
When freedom is taken without knowing or counting the cost.
When true repentance doesn’t happen and people fall away.
When people are discarded, looked upon as “not worth it.”
When fathers want no part in their children’s lives.
When a skin color dictates our actions or attitude.

When I have to look at myself in the mirror as I write this.

Lunch...

O.K. A co-worker and I picked up Indian Food from the TAJ (114th & Miracle Hills Plaza). One of my favorites. Actually I never really cared for Indian food before about 8 months ago. I went there to eat with friends and it was great. Another New Favorite. So I will finish my Eggplant dish and be right back.

Until then......"What makes you Blue?"
Listening to "Switchfoot" (CD nothing is Sound) and eating. Things are good for the moment.

Friday, April 14, 2006

Take a step of faith.....

"If your life is producing only a whine, instead of the wine, then ruthlessly kick it out. It is definitely a crime for a Christian to be weak in God’s strength."

Oswald Chambers

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

The Lord hears and answers prayers…

I may never fully understand how amazing the lord’s grace is sometimes. I do know that he hears us and he loves to answer prayers. Coming from a background of hopelessness and feeling abandoned at times, I found it difficult to sense some of my prayers would ever be answered or heard. Though there are countless. There are two that just still amazes to this day (they all amaze me). The Lord’s compassion and mercy is endless.

For a little over a year I prayed for a true friendship with a male. Not only one that would help me understand God’s creation for Godly fellowship with men, but more, someone seeing me for whom I am. I wanted someone to embrace friendship. A person who would go to battle in prayer and be real with. He is one of my best male friends today.

Around the same time I had also been praying for good godly friendship with a female. A relationship that is innocent, pure in heart, not self-seeking and free in spirit. It gets better. The person the lord brings is not even saved yet. She was a co-worker. Then she went to go work for another company. I prayed for almost a year concerning her coming to know the Lord. About 6 months after she left the company, she e-mails, meets me at church that Sunday and gives her life to the Lord! Still blows my mind.


Over a year after all this, these two I just mentioned starts dating. I feel so blessed and can’t grasp his mercy sometimes. The Lord is faithful. The Lord does answer prayers. Beloved press, lean, or whatever it takes to acknowledge him. He wants to know you. He wants to hear your prayers for friends, family, the broken, and the ones that know him.

Chad and Lisa. I pray his wisdom, grace and deep revelations of his love upon you both. I pray this season would be a season of fun, freedom and yes even stretching. Would it be worth it otherwise? You are true friends and you honor me. The way you both acknowledge me I treasure deeply. I love you both.



Chad and Lisa at Dinner. Letting me be the Third wheel, 'cause they are crazy about me! (hee, hee).

This is me singing for them on thier first big date. (I know I resemble Michael Buble. I get that a lot) :)

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

If....

I never set foot in another nation.
I never have the wisdom of a thousand counselors.
I knew what tomorrow would bring.
My call is to be just yours, single.
Family and friends where to reject me.
I never felt the touch of a son or daughter again.
I’m never relieved of this thorn.
I am not to see the day this nation come fully to you.

My response would be…
You are worth everything.
No one is like you.
You have captured me eternally.
You are always enough.
Take what is rightfully yours.
You are always faithful.
I don’t need to know, I just need you.
Seek me, fill me, breath in me and take me.

Friday, April 07, 2006

New Favorite...

Green Tea- Blackberry Frapachino. hhhhmmmm. That's all for now. Write more after I finish drinking this one.