Egypt I leave you..

I don't look back to be captivated by your intrigue.
It is not better there; I will live on one dependency.
Of new things, new hopes, new visions, a new life.

Fear you will not engage me.
The deceptions of unknowing.
No mystery to the unfulfilled.

The journey is beyond the river hope.
The walk is in the clouds of faith.
I will be made full.

My refuge is not the calling of the one who Sirens my emotions.
The pilar is of the truth, destiny, foundations of his very words.
The goal is not the land, but a heart prepared.

Deceptions unruly, condemnations taken prison.
Not in a land governed by sovereignty.
Freedom is a reality, unblemished for eternity.

Egypt I leave you.

Change me....

As I write and think of a land so far it seems unreal.
Was I really there? Are the people just going through the daily routines.
We all want change no matter what culture,
but we never take the time to step out.
If only tomorrow was here, then I will take the risk, change my mind.
Tomorrow I don't wait for you, tomorrow is here.
My desire is to continue to change, grow. I want to be different and changed,
tomorrow, next week, month, a year from now.
I don't want to live out of what could have been,but out of what can be,
and what already has been given. I feel if I wait to be changed,
it would take away the risk and faith to change.
If I trust god has given, then I take not in selfishness,
but in humality that he trust me.
Free to risk, make mistakes, to live. Life has been given,
So life I take not for granted.
The greatest of all, that it's not just for one. It's for a people.
A people willing to submit and agree with what's already done.
Walking through the destiny, the journey consumed for you.

Can you hear me?

When I walk can you see me?
When I speak in actions can you hear me?
Are we so different that you fear me?
Are we too close to be real with me?
How does one profess so you would believe me?
Why do I sometimes feel so unacknowledged it kills me?
If I where to shout from the roof would it cure me?
If I were to leave would you even miss me?
Radio free Europe, clear, who will talk to me?

Transcending:

1 a : to rise above or go beyond the limits of
b : to triumph over the negative or restrictive aspects of : OVERCOME
c : to be prior to, beyond, and above (the universe or material existence)
2 : to outstrip or outdo in some attribute, quality, or powerintransitive senses :
to rise above or extend notably beyond ordinary limits.

Surely you rise beyond my emotions, thoughts, dreams, my expectation.
Surely you have transcended death, human fears, beyond words or language.

You are the words you are the truth.
You go beyond the scripting and culture.
You go beyond the different shades, the pitch, the notes.

If you were to scream your glory it would break shackles, throw caps off the mountains.
Propel men into eternity, send shock waves that would make creation bow down.
Transcending, you just are!

You are my defender…..

In the creases of my memory lie revelations of who you are
In the hardest of hearts I pushed away, even then you sought me

Though I was lonely you visited me
Though I was ashamed you comforted me
Though I was hungry you fed my spirits
Though I was young you gave wisdom beyond my comprehension
Though I was neglected you pursued me
Though I felt rejected you encouraged me

When I was abused you covered me
When I was beat you healed me
When I was broken to peaces you mended me
When I felt I couldn’t live with out her you walked with me
When I felt like crying forever you kissed my eyes

You have always defended me
You have always fought for me
You have always chased me
You have always been a father

No one compares to you
No is as sovereign as you
Nothing goes unseen by you
No one is like you

I have nothing to offer
All I have is this heart
My love it’s already yours

I ask that you take it again and again
I ask you do with it what you will
I ask you hold it gently as a father
I ask you change me so that we may know you

Take me my Defender, my Lover, my Friend, my Father my King.

Wedding Days

Wedding Days
Ben Pasley

God Loves his family… like a man loves his wife
And the women she is glitter gold, And she dresses
all in white

I’ve seen the wind run round her,
And threaten her with storm
I’ve seen the mountain shake to crush her
And the oceans raise a hand

But if God is near, She will not fall, And bruise
her tender head
If God is near He will keep her from breaking
….careful in His hands
If God is near the girl she will dance, and spin
the heavens round
Wedding days are always remembered
…When true love has been found

Husband…. What does that mean?

As my testimony states (www.realpeopleinarealworld.com) I was previously married. One of my best friends got married this past weekend. He was also previously married. He has a beautiful son and now lovely wife. Note I did not say he is now remarried. During the time we were praying for him before the wedding, the pastor had spoken that it was not his second marriage, but his first. The Lord has redeemed him. Who are you Lord? Who is like you? I have seen a man transform from shame, unsure, and fear to a man with integrity, faith and trust in the one that matters most. A real God, one who seeks him, fights for him and never abandoned him. Characters of a good husband. What does it mean to be a good husband? Lord I pray for purity in their marriage, generations of Godly men and women. Intimacy and revelation of your unending love for them. This is the cup the Lord has given him to drink. For me? Besides perceptions by some people who thought I was O.K. with not every being married, I would say, rather then OK a better term would be learning to be "content" in whatever the situation. However, I still have the faith and dreams to be with a future bride. I don’t regret being a Husband, just being a bad one. I am not OK with not ever being married. I am for marriage! I am for marriages that are life giving, unselfish and with great emotional intimacy. There have been so many engagements and wedding the past 6 months in our community of friends. I love it. If we don’t marry, be fruitful and multiply, we’ll literally die off. The kingdom is life giving. So I pray there would be more great engagements and weddings. And if it’s his time….”Ollie oxen free….take a chance on me.”

It's been awhile..

So I was sick for almost a week then, busy catching up with work and life for another. I have had things on my heart to write. Must have been fleeting thoughts. I was ready to write a new blog when, "Come home Eileen" came on the web music I was listening to. For those of you who don't know, it's an 80's song. Fun music. But as I searched for the Lyrics, (because one cannot really understand what the guy is singing. Sounds like he has a real bad cold. He makes it work. At least for this song) well, let say the lyrics are not what I thought. I read innuendo’s I didn't hear when previously listening to the song. What’s that mean? Exactly that, I didn’t notice it before.
I was having a conversation with a good friend the other day. Both of us have been saved (given our life to the Lord) just under 5 years. We still notice things we didn’t notice before. This song would be a prime example. I am not boycotting, I have freedom to listen to any song. I am merely stating that when truth is revealed, it sets you free. However, I sometimes now have a conviction in my heart when listening to certain songs. Are certain songs though artistically good beneficial for me? I don’t believe I am limited listening only to Christian music. To be honest, it seems some bands use the label “Christian” a little loosely. What does the word "Christian" mean to them? My prayer is that the spirit of God directs me. Ultimately I answer to him.
Peace and grace as you pursue his wisdom. Enjoying his creation. Through Art, music or simply gazing at the stars and eyes of your close loved ones.